23 weeks today

 So, today I am 23 weeks pregnant with baby #4. Geoff has taken Annie to Knoxville for the Southeastern Swimming Championship Meet. You can follow live meet results and see how everyone from tigers is doing. Below is a picture of my belly. Feel free to compare it to this time last year. I haven't been taking as many pictures, ok, I haven't taken any pictures.

Jonas and I get to have a mother-son weekend. The plan so far is zoo in the afternoon on saturday and a movie after that...we'll see how much we do! Cleaning and cooking are on the agenda for tonite, though if he asks to go out to eat, I truly might say yes.


Now that it has been 2 full months since my mom died, I still feel slightly lost. Thankfully, this weekend is the last weekend that I have to spend at her old house. Things will all be out and we can move forward in the process of grieving and loss. I feel like she is kind of here, but not really. It's like when you have a word on the tip of your tongue and you just can't think of the word. I feel like she knows everything that's going on, but at the same time I want to tell her.I know somewhere that she is safe and happy and all those wonderful things, but it just feels so wrong to have her watching over her "3 sweet angels" rather than here with us.